Suicidal Ideation

by Shaun Hathaway

/
1.
15:46
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.
7.

about

"All of my least favorite days are when it's sunny, and no I'm
not crying, my nose is just runny, and all of these fucking
feelings have worsened. And my depression and anxiety
killed off any fucking deity that I may have worshiped.
Watch me steer my car into a tree and hope God reveals
himself to me. I should probably just smoke since I'm
already predisposed to cancer, and last time I had some hope
daddy passed a couple months before Santa came swinging
by with Rudolph and Prancer. But here I sit, with an empty
gaze, and it's been 10 years, so I don't think it's just a phase.
And it's been 5 years and I'm still stuck and every song I try
to sing on, all suck. And, sometimes I wish my ex was
clingier or that my thoughts were at least linear, and even
when I was anorexic I wished that I was skinnier.
And it sounds ridiculous to say, even though it's
been a year, nowadays the fact remains the same
that I'd rather vertical my fucking wrists than to see
his hands up on her hips."

You lay naked in your room. All of the lights are off. The heater is on, yet a cold chill still occasionally finds its way up your back. You mostly see nothing. Once in a while an ocean of beautiful swirling stars thousands of times bigger then you will ever be flickers into your view. The blanket is soft and feels good on your exposed, open body. You forget if you are under the influence for a moment and lapse into a small crisis.

Your mind is fucking blank.

"Thank you for listening! Email me at badang888@gmail.com to tell me what you thought about it, interest in collaborations, or anything else you might wanna ask or tell me about! I love you!"
- Shaun Hathaway

twitter.com/Shauns_Ego

credits

released November 2, 2015

Music, Artwork - Shaun Hathaway

CB-007

tags

license

all rights reserved

about

Cavern Brew Records Palau

EST. 1994

WE <3 DEMOS! IF IT'S WEIRD, SCARY, OR JUST GOOD, I'LL PROBABLY PUT IT OUT.

SEND ALL SHIT TO THE FACEBOOK / THE CONTACT LINK BELOW

ALL FULL DISCOG DLS GO TO THE LABEL MANAGER. ALBUM DLS WILL GO TO THEIR RESPECTIVE ARTISTS (ARTISTS GET 75%, MANAGER GETS 25%). PLEASE SUPPORT OUR SEXY BUNCH.

FORCED AESTHETIC IS NO AESTHETIC LET IT FORM

GOOD JOB

<33333333
... more

contact / help

Contact Cavern Brew Records

Streaming and
Download help